Yo, we need to talk about your legit sainthood.

If you're reading this, if you're on a wizzeldy-weird enough frequency of consciousness even to be able to be see this here page ...

... then I know something VERY, VERY important about you that perhaps no one else has ever mentioned.

I know this: I know that deep down, you know you're a saint.

A saint capable of working miracles.

A saint capable of healing people with a single look.

A saint capable of transmuting giant piles of stinking gnarly human suffering into dewy rose gardens of alchemical joy.

Yes, you.

Don't you DARE wriggle away from acknowledging this; this is important; we gotta talk about it.

I imagine that maybe no one has ever talked to you about this before right now...

... because it's still socially considered extremely arrogant and thus taboo to acknowledge one's own sainthood...

... but that taboo is based on an Old Aeon, patriarchal, conventional Catholic version of sainthood wherein saints are only extremely self-effacing celibate ascetic people that the Pope happens to approve of.

Under the Old Aeon rules, of course you can't ever acknowledge to yourself or to anyone else that you're a saint...

... because then that means you're not humble and self-effacing enough to actually be a saint.

It's a catch-22, and it's not relevant, because humility is just one possible spiritual flavor amongst millions.

Not all saints are saints of humility.

Some are saints of radical self-rejoicing, like David Bowie.

Some are saints of empathy, like Oprah.

Some are saints of daring, like Jack Parsons.

Some are saints of eros, like Prince.

Some are saints of vision, like Ursula K. LeGuin.

You get the gist.

There's a million different flavors of sainthood that are luscious and sparkling rather than ascetic and dry.

All of the people I just mentioned have transmitted massive fuck tons of healing to the hearts of others, and have helped create a more compassionate & fascinating world.

Just like you.

Sainthood has a million different flavors, and one substance.

That substance is love.

Dealing with the gift of sainthood is tough.

I know, because I have it, and so do my dearest friends and the people I most enjoying working with.

Saints:

• have experienced intense wounding, rejection, loneliness in their lives

• feel the pain of the world at a level that wracks their minds and bodies and can disrupt ordinary activities

• tend to be really into psychedelics, tantra, theater, art

• tend to be in love with Death, with Mystery & the beyond

• crave intimacy with the Earth and the elements

• melt into shaking and tears in the presence of beauty

• have often taken some kind of vow of altruistic intention, like the bodhisattva vow

• receive eerie messages from the spirit realm on the regular

• get confused navigating the material world; often have difficulty telling apart Left and Right 'cause... tantra

• struggle to give themselves the same level of love that they're willing to give to others

• have trouble giving themselves credit for the miracles they create

• feel painfully misunderstood at times by people who envy them and demonize them

• get into trouble in intimate relationships because their oceanic hearts can make boundary-setting a real challenge

• often have to go through a long process of learning to communicate their gifts to the world in a way that those gifts can be properly valued with money and attention by others

I guess you could say I'm a meta-saint, because I created the Existential Kink process to support other New Aeon saints in amplifying & inhabiting their saintliness.

This is not a hobby for me, it's a matter of giant urgency.

Look around: this world needs your miracles.

I need your miracles.

For every single moment that you linger on, NOT getting direct support in handling the stuff that blocks you...

... you deny us the full-blast of your exalted gifts, which again...

... WE REALLY FUCKING NEED, PLEASE JUST TAKE A GLANCE AROUND...

... THIS IS THE GODDAMN APOCALYPSE WHEREIN ALL THE OLD SYSTEMS BEGIN TO COLLAPSE AND THE WORLD MUST BE RE-CREATED, MY FRIEND.

We all need you to:

1. stop dithering in Old Aeon modesty

2. plug into the fact that you're a fucking saint

3. and take honest action to get genuine help from other people who truly understand your condition & your potential...

…so you can cultivate that wonderful-terrible-burden-gift of immense love that you have there.

Got it?

Okay, great.

So now I want you to enter your email address in the form below so I can send you free chapters from my Existential Kink book, so you can read them and learn how to melt the inner resistances that block your full expression in the world.

Existential Kink is a cutting-edge shadow integration process that has already helped thousands start working their miracles at a tremendous new level of effectiveness.

More about Existential Kink….

The principle that Existential Kink is based on, the principle of consciously taking taboo pleasure in painful life situations in order to make “the unconscious, conscious” and change our Fate…

… was well-known in the early days of psychoanalysis.

Freud called this taboo pleasure in painful life situations “psychic masochism.”

Lacan, a French disciple of Freud, called it “jouissance” - perverse pleasure so overwhelming that the psyche represses it.

Jung, of course, saw this taboo pleasure embodied in night-time dreams in an archetypal character called the Shadow.

All of these genius therapists knew that a major key to helping people turn their lives around involved gently getting them to deliberately experience their secret pleasure in the very stuff that their conscious mind claimed to hate and feel victimized by.

So I call this process “Existential Kink” which is a new name for it, but this process isn’t a totally new innovation. 

It’s “existential” because it deals with our whole existence and the way we assign meaning to our experiences.

It’s “kinky” because just like in BDSM with whips and chains, it involves creating special time to let ourselves enjoy intense sensations that we’re usually averse to.

As we just discussed, this process of making unconscious pleasure, conscious — was a well-known form of healing amongst the greatest psychotherapists.

So why does it sound so strange?

Well, I think it sounds strange because no one in the popular personal development, psychology, or self-help fields has ever talked about it, and I suspect there’s a reason for that.

THE REASON IS THIS: THIS FACT THAT WE HUMANS ALL TAKE UNCONSCIOUS PLEASURE IN THE THINGS WE CONSCIOUSLY DISLIKE IS IMMENSELY OFFENSIVE TO OUR EGOS.

“How dare you imply that I would ever enjoy this awful thing…. Can’t you see I’m being terribly victimized by it?”

The ego has set up a Cult of the Victim, and it’s riding at an all-time high right now. Everyone, on all sides of the political spectrum, wants to vie for the role of Most Oppressed.

And this makes sense.

Our ego, the sense of self that we ordinarily identify with, is geared towards survival above all else.

And as such, our egos are obsessed with “getting the good stuff” that can help us survive including “more oppressed than thou” points.

You don’t have to take my word for it, just glance at Facebook or Instagram.

Isn’t everyone busy trying to get more social status to boost their survival by showing off both all their righteous indignation and all the goodies they’ve got?

I don’t mean to throw any shade, it’s a very human and natural thing to do.

In fact, you can follow me on Instagram at @carolynelliott_ and see my goodies if you want too, LOL, I like to show them off as much as everyone else!

But the thing is, our egos are just not the whole truth of who we are.  

As you know from the magic in your heart, our whole, true Self is divine. 

This means that our True Selves encompass everything - light and dark, good and evil, pleasure and pain. 

And like God, our True Selves simultaneously grieve and rejoice in everything.

Put simply - in order to thrive - to feel really happy and fulfilled - and not just to survive like the ego wants us to do...

... we have to start consciously embracing the larger part of our Selves that divinely enjoys the “bad stuff” as much as the “good stuff”…

… even though the “bad stuff” doesn’t get us anywhere on Instagram, and joyfully embracing it makes us lose those righteous “more oppressed than thou” points 😉

Let’s pause a moment to think about the consequences of relentlessly seeking to only be good and to only have good stuff happen in our lives. 

This is the default program that almost everyone operates on.  We all want to be virtuous, well-loved, disciplined (i.e. “be good”) and we all want to win, to succeed, to come out on top (i.e. “get good stuff.”)

And where does it lead us?

Well, first it pretty much invariably leads to feeling guilty, “not good enough” and “like a failure.”

Why? 

Because at least some of the time you’re not going to succeed at “only being good” (virtuous, healthy) and at only getting good stuff.

You win some, you lose some.

If you’re only allowed to feel really good about yourself when you’re winning, you’re going to feel like a guilty, not-good enough failure at least half the time.

What do people do when they feel like failures?

They start seeking escapes to change their mood and make them feel better. The most popular and accessible escapes include alcohol, drugs, tobacco, sugar, streaming TV and social media.

All of these things are great when they’re a balanced part of life, but I’m sure we all know tons of people who absolutely rely on these to get through a day because otherwise they feel lousy…

… because deep down they feel like failures….

… because their minds tell them that they’re only supposed to be good and do good and get good, and that’s just not humanly possible…

…. so they take in vast amounts of alcohol, drugs, tobacco, sugar, TV, social media…

.... and eventually it ruins their physical and mental health. 

You probably can think of at least ten people in your life right now who are physically ill, depressed, anxious, addicted. 

Life doesn't have to be like this.  We can all thrive in reality instead of reaching for escapes.

Ironic, isn’t it? That wanting to only have and be good ends us up in such rotten shape?

There’s another way.

The other way involves celebrating your wholeness, your good and your evil, your winning and your losing, in a way that playfully rejoices in all of it.

You can learn exactly how to do this in the free first chapters of my acclaimed Existential Kink book.

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