the necessity of OBSCENE self-love
Getting read to step through a major Portal like signing up for WEALTH or sometimes even just entering a new season can feel harrowing.
Sensations of nausea and fatigue can come up. Why?
Because these sensations accompany every medicine journey, whether that medicine takes the form of a plant ally or a new era, or a fresh community.
The nausea and fatigue arise as you digest the intensity of the coming death.
A new & strange world - from Obscure Cities by Francois Schuiten
Death? Yes, that's right. As you get ready to pass through a Portal, you know on a deep bodily level that CHANGE is on the horizon, that your old patterns will have to END...
... and even though those old patterns might be stale & quite painful...
... you still don't quite know yet who you will be without those old patterns.
This not-knowing can be terrifying.
This not-knowing leaves a dizzying uncertainty, a precipice with no rails.
a precipice with no rails - Obscure Cities by Francois Schuiten
We humans instinctively avoid uncertainty, as it's uncomfortable and potentially dangerous.
Often, only the old, limiting assumptions, the false familiar homeostasis feels "safe."
And yet.
What if the Unknown on the other side of your Portal crossing...
.... turned out to be wildly more KIND and GENEROUS and SWEET and KINKY and FUN than the limiting "certainties" you've been holding onto?
All too often, our "certainties" have to do with how cruel the world is and how powerless we are.
These "certainties" live as traces in our psyche from childhood, when we had little agency.
When we leave these old "certainties" in place, unquestioned, they can severely limit how much new "good stuff" (money, love, inspiration) we'll let ourselves receive.
To overcome these old traces, these old certainties... I invite you to give them an obscene level of love.
Yes, obscene. Because if true self-love was acceptable, sane, safe, and decent, everyone would be doing it already.
True self-love is mad, unreasonable, forbidden.
It's taboo because it involves relishing the "wrong" and "shameful" parts of ourselves, including our limitations and fears.
Are you willing to risk disapproval from others in order to truly connect with your own soul?
Yes? Great.
Give excessive, disgusting, throbbing, forbidden LOVE to your old limits and fears, and find out what happens.
I think you'll find it opens up a big new vista.
from Obscure Cities by Francois Schuiten
best,
Dr. Carolyn Elliott
author of Existential Kink: unmask your shadow and embrace your power
P.S.
Want a proven method & real social support for inhabiting obscene self-love so you can accepting 1000% better money, love, and power into your life?
Click the link below:
WEALTH: the alchemical community where leaders shift to 1000% better money, love, and inspiration....
.... is open for application starting today, for one week only. It's filling up fast. You can click here to learn more and apply.
Reasons to apply for WEALTH:
- it's a trashy mystery school where we learn how to let ourselves receive way more money, love, creativity through embracing all our "bad & wrong" bits
- it's the place to meet the most intellectual, fun, and sexy magic people on earth & get to know them via rad virtual social events
- it's the foundation of a New Aeon worldwide evolution in consciousness via the Alchemical Marriage, and you can be in on the ground floor
- for your ultimate happiness & fulfillment, it's a much better investment of $99 per month than literally anything else. Seriously. You won't miss that extra take-out food order because you'll be so full on true love for your life.
- takes way less time to massively change your life for the better with WEALTH than a 2-season Netflix binge takes
- we have a Gifting Program so that after you apply & are admitted as a member, you can nominate someone else to receive a FREE gifted membership (contingent upon them passing through the application process).... so you get to be super-generous to someone else
What people say about their experience & results in WEALTH:
“Feeling more relaxed, at home, and at peace in my body than I ever have in my entire life. Getting access to project management certification prep through work and feeling empowered to pursue certification.” - A'isha A.
“I want to express my undying gratitude to Carolyn and Taia for changing my life and work for the ultimate betterment of my community and family. My children will carry this forward in their DNA and now I’m crying with love for you all in this wealth community. thank you thank you thank you.” - Jaya A.
“I paid my taxes on time this year! This has been a struggle for me since I don't make a ton of money (yet) but the taxes I pay are astronomical due to a messed up work situation that I'm currently extracting myself from. Getting these taxes paid honestly felt like a miracle <3” - Emily S.
“I manifested a PR agent against all odds for my book. Something once seemingly difficult seemed like a nothing - but I know it is not a nothing, it is a big thing created with brilliant ease.” - Martina M.
“I gained over 50 new tarot clients in the first weeks following my joining WEALTH. 50! In 2-3 weeks!” - Megan B.
“I GOT A JOB!!!!!! I utterly blame WEALTH!!! I opened myself up to this position by questioning my desperate attachment to my scarcity kink and the shitty little contract job I applied for is a w2 position, just a temporary benefitted contract until they decide to bring me on, on salary!” - Sarah L.
“I managed to decide on a career direction (which I've been working on since March), enroll in training, and apply for a few attractive jobs. I even got a couple of offers this week from people viewing my resume online. Not for jobs I want, but having anyone express an interest is a positive. And I attracted a chunk of the money I asked for in the Money Spell.” - Cherie H.
“The synchronicities have been enormous and have led to a deeper trust in myself and my intuition. I was simultaneously taking a Tarot and Intuition class with another practitioner and I don't think I could have gone as deep into that learning without the support of WEALTH.” - Corinne B.
“I launched my new website, and opened a new Etsy store to sell my prints and originals, and sold an original for $650 within the first 2 weeks of my shop opening! Very happy with that. Also, I have booked two podcast interviews, and an author and witch I’ve admired for a long time as agreed to be my model for a major art prize next year.” - Lucy M.
“1. I scored a contract I wanted. It was offered to me AS I WAS AT MY ALTAR WORKING THE MANTRA; 2. I scored the TWO interviews I wanted for the entertainment journalist piece of me; 3. I finished the last two books in the MEDIUM CHILL series now live on Amazon.” - Rhonda B.
“I had $6000 debt in early March when covid 19 hit us. I used our affirmation to visualise the debt paid off by June 1st, 2020, and low and behold I've managed to pay off every single cent, all while not working (doing absolutely nothing but lay around waiting for the pandemic to end).” - Mary F.
“Since I started doing my affirmation (on the 9th) I’ve manifested a free photoshoot for my new clothing line AND a new job.” - Stefanie J.
“A tangible result or experience I am celebrating is weightloss, clarity of vision and capacity to advocate for values, with tact, and creativity.” - Katie B.
“I received a raise and am able to count on another month of working almost every day during these crazy times.” - Lita Wilch
“$8,000 just fell from the sky a half hour after my Miracle Group met.” - Sarah LaFleur
“I took the Money Metta [meditation] for a whirl last night. ‘May I be devoured, may I be consumed, may I be received.’ Today I pulled the Hermit and saw Cerberus in the corner and thought of someone who took my last lab—I build teams of game players—who the game identified as Cerberus. A few hours later, her spectacular testimonial growled into my inbox with all the fervor of Hades and she literally wrote “...eaten alive...” and then someone sent me a link to check for “unclaimed property” and I had $2,000 waiting for me to devour.” - Cindie C.
“Multiple people in management have told me I need to get promoted this week…and being able to love and celebrate and drink that in instead of freaking the fuck out and running in the other direction. My havingness level is definitely shifting and I'm able to take up space in the world with more confidence.” - A'ishah A.
“This program is already more rich with potential than programs I've paid 10 X this” - Natalia
“The energy of this group and you two is amazing. I am so blessed. Thank you Melissa for gifting me with this membership and thank you Carolyn for offering this as an offering” - Sarah Lafleur
“Thank you Carolyn and Taia! You have created something so beautiful. Blessings to all 3 of you! <3” - Michele
“I am so emotionally moved....so much at home here. So much coming through...soooo good!” - Jen Piceno
“This group has helped me get my mojo back” - Susie Jones
“This is probably the most interesting BUSINESS class in the world! :)” - Charlie
“This was so perfect to help my confidence, exactly what I needed help with thank you!” - Rose